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Wednesday, June 10, 2009

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Today’s Text: James 1:12

When the Going Gets Tough

“Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial.” James 1:12

There I was driving along, half hypnotized by the steady flow of traffic. I glanced at the car ahead of me. The bumper sticker read, “When the going gets tough, the tough go shopping!” I chuckled. But then I thought: Could you really call yourself “tough” if you headed for the mall every time life went sour? As I drove, I pondered how to really finish that sentence, “When the going gets tough, the tough . . . do what?”

A quick Internet search on the phrase returned endless possibilities for completing the thought. Here are some of the wackiest endings: “When the going gets tough, the tough “go to Asia,” or, the tough “start knitting.” One even said, “The tough lighten up!”

All of these alternative endings are humorous in their own way. But, they also represent ways to deal with “tough going.” For example, shopping could symbolize immediate gratification. Racing off to Asia might mean you’re running away from the problem. Starting to knit is a picture of distracting yourself from the trouble at hand. And if you simply lighten up, or laugh it off—that’s kind of like denial.

I don’t think any of us would get very far in life if we repeatedly chose those responses to trouble. They all contradict the traditional ending to the phrase. “When the going gets tough, the tough get going.” The tough hang in there; they persevere. James 1:12 says: “Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial, because when he has stood the test, he will receive the crown of life.”

In the Greek language, the word perseverance is literally made up of two words. One means “to remain.” The other word means “under.” That tells us that perseverance is the ability to remain under the pressure of difficulty with a good spirit. As Christians, we have a responsibility to bear the stress until God accomplishes His purposes. This gives us the assurance that our suffering has meaning.

In fact, God intends that we, in time, will blossom under the pressure. That’s why James exhorts us to submit to the trial and let perseverance finish its job of sanctification. In James 1:4, the text tells us, “Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.” And, check out Romans 5 where Paul says that perseverance produces character!

In addition to the blessings that God brings to us when we persevere, perseverance also allows others to see Christ at work in our lives. With the growing interest in spirituality today, people are watching us more than ever before. They are looking to see if there is anything of value in our walk with Jesus. Or, are we just like anyone else when the going gets tough? They want to know, would a Christian use a string of four-letter words if she lost the big sale? Would a Christian booze it up after a crazy stressful day at the office? What would it take for a Christian to throw in the towel on his marriage? When we invite God to help us through situations like these, He furnishes the power to persevere so that onlookers can see that our Jesus is worth being faithful to regardless of the stress.

The next time a problem comes up and you’re tempted to go shopping, gallivant off to Asia, or knit yourself into oblivion, remember: Since God has a purpose in your problem, it’s worth hanging in there! So, if you are a follower of Jesus, your bumper sticker announces, “When the going gets tough, the tough hang in there!”

YOUR JOURNEY…

• Many people in the Bible struggled with difficult circumstances, but they did not give up. Read Hebrews 11. What enabled those people to persevere?
• Do you have true grit? Write down some recent responses to trouble in your life. Do you tend to stay the course, or do you look for a way out?
• If you need encouragement to persevere, read the following Scriptures: Psalm 73:26; 2 Thessalonians 1; Hebrews 10:19-39; 12:1-3.

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Awesome readup ! I just happened to bump into a friend’s problem which i also am very frustrated about. I just have a feeling that i have a problem of my own.

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What i do when i have a tough time ? Hmm.. plenty ! I can sit @ the PC and hack away with whatever .. Go out lepaking .. Yam Cha … Well actually not that doing those are bad ..i dont see it as bad .. lol ..

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Okay what he was trying to say is that when u hit a bad time, do u run away doing something or persevere ? He then mentioned a few quotes from the wordly people, and almost none wants to link to what the bible says.

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When the going gets tough, hang in there. Who would ? Honestly I would just drop the whole matter if it was ever a problem, but throught the years, i realised that i have changed.

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People regard me as a person with no problem, true enuf, i dont have big problems. I look @ the problem of other people, and i wonder to myself, what wouldve happen if i were in their shoe ?

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Sure i dont hf serious life threatening problems, but its just those particular sins i have. It is a big problem to me because i can not do what i used to do. Pretty confusing actually, not gonna state it out.

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At least this will serve as a reminder to me when i DO face some big issues. Even if its not BIG ones, still a good reminder.

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-dtdw

A Life Remembered

June 8, 2009

A Life Remembered

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READ: Psalm 139:1-16

That we may be able to comfort those who are in any trouble, with the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God. —2 Corinthians 1:4

Daddy, help me.” Those were the last words Dianne and Gary Cronin heard their daughter say as she struggled to breathe. Kristin, 14 years old, died suddenly—just 2 days after saying she didn’t feel well. A strep infection attacked her body on Thursday. By Saturday, she was pleading with her daddy to help her.

Before Kristin died, I was scheduled to speak at her family’s church in Soldotna, Alaska. In God’s timing, I stood before the congregation the day after her funeral.

Kristin was one of those vivacious teens who loved Jesus and lived for Him—and whose sudden death leaves us with a million questions.

Because I went through a similar loss of my own teenage daughter a few years ago, I was able to offer some advice to this stunned and grieving church. First, I said, we must recognize God’s sovereignty. Psalm 139:16 reminds us that Kristin’s life was the exact length God intended. Second, I asked the church never to forget her family. Whether it’s 2 months or 5 years later, the family will never “get over” losing Kristin. They will never stop needing Christians who care and remember.

In times like this, don’t forget that God is in control and that He wants us to be a comfort to others.  — Dave Branon

When we sustain a heartbreaking loss,
When grief overwhelms our soul,
The Savior who gave Himself on the cross
Reminds us that He’s in control. —D. De Haan

In every desert of despair God has an oasis of comfort.

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Psalm 139:1-16 (The Message)

Psalm 139

A David Psalm

^1-6 God, investigate my life; get all the facts firsthand.
I’m an open book to you;
even from a distance, you know what I’m thinking.
You know when I leave and when I get back;
I’m never out of your sight.
You know everything I’m going to say
before I start the first sentence.
I look behind me and you’re there,
then up ahead and you’re there, too—
your reassuring presence, coming and going.
This is too much, too wonderful—
I can’t take it all in!

^7-12 Is there anyplace I can go to avoid your Spirit?
to be out of your sight?
If I climb to the sky, you’re there!
If I go underground, you’re there!
If I flew on morning’s wings
to the far western horizon,
You’d find me in a minute—
you’re already there waiting!
Then I said to myself, “Oh, he even sees me in the dark!
At night I’m immersed in the light!”
It’s a fact: darkness isn’t dark to you;
night and day, darkness and light, they’re all the same to you.

^13-16 Oh yes, you shaped me first inside, then out;
you formed me in my mother’s womb.
I thank you, High God—you’re breathtaking!
Body and soul, I am marvelously made!
I worship in adoration—what a creation!
You know me inside and out,
you know every bone in my body;
You know exactly how I was made, bit by bit,
how I was sculpted from nothing into something.
Like an open book, you watched me grow from conception to birth;
all the stages of my life were spread out before you,
The days of my life all prepared
before I’d even lived one day.

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Hmm.. the description is getting somewhat shorter to me. I duno, but i like reading long explanation of what the writter is trying to convey.

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Yes the scripture is as long, but i could never get enuf of infos just by reading scriptures.

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Always the question asked is : Which part of the verse jumps out to you ?

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Could i say, All of it ? Hahahz ..yeap this time, all of it jumps out to me, mayb coz its tad shorter than what camp stuff have.

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Now, i’ve met a non-christian, specifically a really non-christian that is hard to convince, due to persecution and all the jazz that he have to suffer if he revoked his religion. Somehow today’s reading tells me, that God isnt looking @ religion, nationality, race, tradition, culture diffrences.

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No, God IS looking @ his people, as humans, formed and created from HIS image, and as above scripture, an open book. Every part, proccess, plans, all written. Hmm well there’s one part i am not so sure. Its about freedom of choice.

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That part, had to be looked at @ another intensive post, but what’s important here is that, is your book @ Jesus’ hands ? Or rather, is mine in ? I am certain mine’s in, but what about me friends’?

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Actually this post has more to it than what the writter is telling. I duno, but i juz had a feeling that im becoming more observant, or rather picky. Every Sentence of Psalms above can be a post long.

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Notice that i’m just focusing on a small part here.

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Trip to Ampang waterfall

Day started as usual… me being an idiot that coulnt really do anything he’d always wanted to do … So i decided to take a trip down  …or up …to KL to discover my life. Of course being a vampire i alwys sleep late at night and from morning coulnt really do much … so i was super duper sleepy but yet took this not so fun filled trip up.

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Well so that’s how it was… we went up all the way to search for a waterfall so that we could have smth to do for yf outing. Well not that i do not like stuffs like these …its jz tht im more of a indoor idiot thts quite teh lazy to move around … so thts why sometimes i’d prefer the schoolgroub activity rather than being in teh college ones …

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you could say that i’m not really those tht would mix with people at my age and older …so obviously u dont see me around those thts older than me ..duh !! .. well of coz im talking bout teh boys side …which obviously had no problem with whatsoever … but teh main issue’s alwys on teh girls … well frankly speaking(writing) … the more post i posted, the more i get confused and frustrated … and irritated … and …how did it ever come to this topic ?!?! gee man i was jz talking about waterfall ..

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and so yeah … the first one we surveyed … well it kinda suck … we sorta like went in a hurry without taking any change of clothes, and drove up thr to pay 4bucks for parking ticket, and voila !! a bunch of HUANAS jz apeared and if u wana do a head count ..i’d say easliy a thousand and 99% are HUANAS.. So yea i couldnt imagine the crowd …and teh weather was so fleaking hort yet the road is one lane and all teh cars parked at teh side tht caused a massive traffic jam and bunch of HUANAS walking on teh road coz thrs like no where else for u to walk on and so yea we hafto park so far away and being greeted by so many HUANAS tht we went up and came down straight away ….and yea ….CURSE u government… or rather useless idiot tht handles tourism malaysia …

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oh yea and thrs teh part tht ljx fell down …bt i didnt notice it until he walked up …. hmm… my mind was definitely somewhere else .. so we prayed a prayer after tht incident and went to another waterfall which is another long journey rounding up and up … well yea tht place was much bigger and cleaner …good job for those people there … it has lesser people and a bigger place …so yea it was cool ..so thts decided tht we’ll land thr for outing … i coulnt really bother listing out teh details coz i was dead tired climbing up and down and sitting in teh car for too long a journey … and then we didnt even bring enuf stuff to play teh water while we’re at it …. and yet i didnt hf a camera ….ahh jeez …forget it…

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why did this post become so sadistic ?!? well yea …initially my plan was to go thr and find some answers about certain thing …but hey … came back empty handed … hmm… whatsort of mountaintop experience was pastor talking about ehh ? ..

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all said and not done … back to my life infront of teh pc !!

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feb 14

well.. for some reason i felt like posting …and for some reason i chose that tittle … damn why am i so obvious .. but hey …looks like i’m regretting something here .. well of course this good for nothing me have been reading manga for like forever … thanks to this autopager program and onemanga.com i’ve managed to complete a few thousand pages in less than a week …and i somehow completed two stories in a week !! hows that huh ?

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but being the obvious me, i chose echi and romance genre …and yea of course i liked it… eww !! there was one friend of mine that said she wanted to be a manga character when we’re in secondary school … she was kinda engrossed in it but that time i always critisize her for not realizing that reality was much more colourful (duh) … unless someone coloured the page ! …

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anyway i was slow to adapt to being a manga reading freak …but i sorta like understand how she felt now (damn dtdw …ure slow . . .) .. i can pretty much imagine if i was a manga character …and it felt better than reality …coz i can pretty much do anything as long as the mangaka wants it done this or that way. of course the love part is always the best and most fun and thrilling, coz in reality, thrs always a limit at which u wanna do together with someone u like.

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but actually.. being a mangaka is always the best, bcoz u get to determine what the main character does, and you can always shape the girlfriend-to-be and make her the best female in the entire world, which in reality, you can search all you want but as humans, she can make as much mistake and make u sad for just being with her and blah ….

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i know im kinda stupid to put it this way, but that is how i view the reality as of right now. As much as i’m trying to not think of my future, i’m alwys fantasizing about this and that girl. But as of society around me right now, i somehow grew cold and distant myself from the topic of falling in love.. coz love in todays society is just an excuse to sleep around and earn extra bucks. for guys however it is alwys a nice and pleasant thing (duh) ..and when u’re done you get to change your ’shirt’ and wont leave a scar on your ‘ex’ coz she’s also doing the same thing. its like saying ” everyone is already doing it, if you feel sad coz u dumped her or being dumped, you’re losing out man ! … thrs stil plenty of fishes around .. and majority of girls also think the same way ” why get so sad when he dumped u ? not like u’re gonna cry for the rest of ur life right ?”

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anyway … things are getting pretty messed up as of now, and especially my idiotic life … i’m gonna get into battle first !

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Recording Madness

Well … for some reason … i’ve kinda drifted away from live band performance towards recording .. like totally home recording without using a studio ..

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My initial idea was just to record a particular riff or tune or technique whenever it hits me, so that i do not forget what i play, so that in teh future i can recall it up and further modify it to better tune. That was the start of my interest, and its been quite long since i wanna do that, but hadnt got the passion or guts or just pure laziness, coz i need to download this and that and plug in this and that.

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But few days ago, i’ve decided .. thats it ! i’ve had enuf of ” i dont remember how i played it” syndrom, and everytime i came out with something diff to play with, and its totally not the REAL thing tht i wanted and i alwys try to remember that particular tune i had when im sleeping. So i digged out the Cubase LE and installed it, digged out a usb cable+extender and pluged it into my zoom G7. After few hours, its ready to record and to my experience, it was really bad.

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So i thought, lets record the riff for a few seconds in series so i could compare it, but LOL ..it didnt turn out that way coz i switched on metronome, and as musicians know, metronome can be evil, or if perfected can be an angel. So i didnt want to be conformed to evilness due to lack of timing, so i began riffing it with metronome just to get that short riff on time.

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Slowly, it began to dawn on me, what on earth am i doing ? I went on and did a complete backup of an entire song !! Obviously it was bad sounding coz i know nuts about editing, post processing, and lots more .. So i exported it out as DRY mix. Further more, i do not have even a semi-profesional rig. Just pure pre-amp with amps EQ, and wit a built-in sound card in the PC. So i began researching for more info on latency issues and lo and behold, i found SONAR 8, and obviously i dont have or wouldnt buy an original, so i did some tricks to get it, duhh .. malaysians ..

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SONAR 8 was just pure insane. IT probly beats the best product that Steinberg could offer, and at a price that’s far cheaper, altho not many home musician could even afford it. So what Cakewalk (company that made Sonar) did was giving away free full version trial, and it totaly blew me away.

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After watching youtube’s video, it blew me away even further, and i tot i was in diff planet. Well its so complicated that, at the same time very user friendly, but for first time user, of course i was pulling my hair to get the sound working, but after a few tweaks, its working like a charm.

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So now, instead of just recording my split second riff dream, i can finally put an entire song into backup tracks, and what that means is, i can convey my idea to the musicians far easier, and what more is that i can use that as a dual guitarist, and bla bla bla … There’s lots more posiblities that i’ve yet to discover, and its not just recording, this is like building a foundation for the next generation to follow. It will, hopefully be a tool for my teaching, so that i do not need to play the backups, but being able to do solos so that they could learn faster, or i could teach more efieciently.

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Obviously all this ideas are just too messy and complicated, and at times i feel lost when i think of the posibility of using such program. But we’ll go step by step alright ? do teh recording with perfect timing first. When i finish that, i could use some drum plugin and add it in, then use midi to fill in teh gap ..

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It was a waste tht i didnt go for classes, and lots of term oso i dont understand, but this is whr i should learn, and once i get the basic down, i can just focus on me playing teh guitar. Soon, i’ll turn most of the songs our chc sings, to rock, using just this program.

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new year reso 3

Hah … i’m gonna just add more and more reso post … well mostly i add reso’s when something happenens ..as i was thinking of teaching hong wei, so happen saturday was a turnoff, coz thrs no events and stuff, so means no practice and all. .. and bandpractice hasnt start, then thrs a meeting right at teh stage, and the acoustic g is missing … owh what a bummer …

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So me too, had left early, and carried my elect-G back to teh car, .. what a hassle ..then met up with collin … then sudenly wht came my mind was he wanted to play elect G, and he asked me b4 long time tht he wanted to learn some stuffs .. so i said ok … then i ask him again b4 going back, wanna learn ? no prob ..so i made an appointment to teach hong wei and collin at the same time, and i would really need saturday’s 6 – 7pm .. hopefully a keyholder can stayback for a while, and thrs no unnesasary meeting right at teh stage …

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So yea .. a short post to add one more person to the cue … now i jz need to find time to juggle between these 3 people. .. Erm .. 4 actually. Now i need hong wei to get either a acoustic G or Elect G .. the cheaper and lowest maintainence is of coz acous G .. and to practice from gound zero, i’d prefer having him play on acous G to get used to teh strength and whatnot basic positioning. When he’s confident enuf, then he’ll get elect G to further do stuffs tht acous G cannot. But what i’m thiking right now is to lend him my Squire, but teh problem isnt on the cleaning, but to get a cheap and versatile amp. The lowest i can get is 330RM .. hmm .. any amp other than roland micro cube ..i dont recomend any others … Well now i do feel bad for not properly taking care of that Squirel … and calling it all sorts of bad thingys … Now that it has to become someone else’ friend … i dont feel bad for letting it go coz ive got a better one, and tht Squirel is a nuisance in my house for taking up xtra space for an unwanted good. But to give a litterally ‘trash’ to someone else .. i am something isnt it ? LOL ..

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But tht problem aside .. well i do feel that as the old members gets older, they pickup more responsiblility, and as such kenyiap got a baby, handles indonesian ministry, some youth work outside … i can see tht he hasnt much time to spare at all .. and donald got married, kids probly coming, work overload .. also not much time .. andrew was very free 1 … WAS  ..then for some reason he seemed busier and so … basically … no one to teach potential future musicians lah …

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And bcoz of that, i had no choice .. when i started learing .. i dont have alot of so called teachers to teach me drums or guitar .. either i self learn, or quit .. But thank god for the few that helped, i managed to play for till today .. if john isnt there, i’ll never play it at all… if kenyiap didnt spend that limited time he had, i will never think of serving at all .. if andrew didnt show me wht needs to be done for this particular song, i’ll be lost .. same with joshua, cavin, and eng kok ..  But that aside … i would say it isnt enuf at all … if a pro would to sit me down for 1 hour, tht would help better than just little bit of crumbs from each people ..

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Well wht i meant is, .. FINE ! these people are busy, but i’m not. And i’m classed in church as the most free and wu liao human. So i’ll use this bad thing or so called bad thing .. for good … Altho i dont have very very big dreams .. actually i do … but to me and alot of people, it just seem like blank talk… like how i wish to change the way to play music ROCK .. and add in elements of solos .. and standing infront of massive crowds of youth .. BUT. . i do have certain dreams tht WILL come through … those arent about me but about the youths ..

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Thats the reason why i opt to train them FOC, and made this an important thing not to miss .. Whatever crappy thing i do, i teach them, but hey .. im teaching theory .. i dont really expand it till they do it MY way .. i let them explore their own thing .. Anyhow .. fine even Jon and Kevin is busy am i right ? i duno what is going on in everyone’s life, but if im available, then why not ? i’m building a future for this church’ youths … coz i dont know what i’ll be doing in teh future, ..who knows what i end up in, even busier than pastor ? And i dont wanna hear myself saying, ..its too late to teach them now .. So i’d rather hantam and got time means practice wit them ..teach them ..whatever little skill i have  ..

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I know i know ..everyone just gives crap about quiet time and personal relationship with god .. but hey .. i dont have such a faith as strong as a mountain .. i still fall ..but if that’s gonna stop me .. then i’m speechless .. i know my weakness, and i know i’m not there yet, so am i gonna condem those people younger than me ? thts imposible .. everytime i come to any old musician ..they sure say .. quiet time, devotion, personal worship .. same ol’ same ol’ .. sad to say..i hate it .. and yet again dont give crap to me about lucifer .. i know wht he did more than how much tv u watch …

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I’ll leave the usual disipline to the ‘person in charge’ of a ‘particular instrument’ aight ? I’m not gonna give bullcrap to my students … just purely skills … when it comes the time for me to be teh ‘person in charge’ of a ‘particular instrument’ then oni i think about boring teh future musicians about ‘the usual stuff u need to follow before any skills comes in’ .. aight ?

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new year reso 2

ok ..here comes version two … well yeah ..every year i seem to buy at least something exp .. last year i bought 1 pc and 1 guitar and 1 effect box .. last last year i tink was a smaller effect box … and last duno hw many years was an amp … hmm … well of coz one year doesnt passby me without me spending munny on stuffs like these … and of course if u ask me which stuff i regreted was probly the pc ..coz altho i can play some modern games with a big screen, one year later and a game called crysis totally crippled my pc, and as the industry says : get a better gfx card, which means : burn your 4k salary at least once a year.

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So yes, i did fork out 1k+ for two gfx card to do SLI which runs both cards together to get better visual quality, but i was lucky tht i bought both low end cards, or else i wouldnt have enuf munny to buy teh guitar. So it was good that i got out of the pc industry, and now i can finally focus on what really matters to me : MUSIC !!

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Yes as you all know, i WAS a drummer, WAS alwys thinking of playing drums, WAS alwys wishing that i could show off a little bit, but soon to realize that it was total crap when jtsen came into the picture. Its not about his knowledge or skills, its coz he has a drumset at home, while many of youths didnt/couldnt own … And even tho ur skill and knowledge may suck in the begining, you would be pro in just a year if you own a real (not digital) drumset at home, coz u could play it 365 days. Same theory as any instrument, it does crap for you for just knowledge or skill if you dont own an instrument.

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I was thinking … alwys using the church drums … its kinda sad case lah .. besides .. using it had more issues that you can gather throughout the week .. And if u seriously think of practicing with it, one year has only 52 weeks, and most of the time u oni had saturday to play with, so half of 52 .. yeap… and no wander some people stil suck even tho we started learning together, as for me it was elect G ..of course i wouldve been better than the drums counterpart, coz i have 365 days to spare.

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So at the moment, i have two potential candidate : Hong Peng and Hong Wei, with the latter learing elect G. Which it is my major, and Hong Peng learning drums which is my minor. It was really the best, coz as far as music goes, i would prefer this two instrument. Now my plan is to at least get to intermediate on drums so that i can kickstart new players with no lack of basic skills. I wouldnt dare to teach them with my partial knowledge and skills. But as for elect G, im fully confident.

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So in order to get to semi profesional, i need a drumset at home so that i can get familiar and teach oso can be confident lah. Budget is not a problem at all, as i would thank god for his providence for my family. Altho if u look at it on another angle, u can call me PAI KAH ZAi ..lol … but im using this for the sake of church purposes, so i would really apreaciate god’s blessing to continue to come. Altho partly it’s just my interest in music, but instead of keeping everything to myself, i’m starting to pass on teh skills to others.

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At first it was really self gain self interest, but since ive thought of teaching others, it just became like that, at least tht sell fish ness aint there. So the only think to take care of is my parents consent and to shift out the two shelves, then my room can be fully converted into a mini studio, mayb keyboard and acoustic G will come, then a mixer or whatever it is will come too .. lol …

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Now there’s zachary, belum habis training. This saturday hopefully got enuf time to teach Hong Wei, and drums .. probly much much later .. coz as usual, drums always gives me a strong negative feeling as its all about the internal issues. Besides, . . not everyone can afford one, even tho its just 1k, and not everyone dares to get one, unless u live in a corner unit, a banglo, or a underground house, OR if u’r as daring as me in normal link house, be prepared to be scolded.

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If u are like me, even without spending much time practicing, but have good sense of musical knowledge, you probly can escape without owning a drumset. Jz need to sit down on teh drums for few minutes and jam jam abit, then u will easily pickup the acuracy. Well that’s me, god’s special ability given to me. While some or most people canot pick it up as easlily as me, i sometimes despice them, coz if u wanna compare me and you, we both dont own a drumset, we both are in church as long, we both listen to music before we were born, we both have the same passion, and mind you, we both dont have any actual knowledge on playing drums coz we both also dont attend lessons, we both dont own a drumpad, basically, we are the same lah, but some just canot pickup the ‘thing’ as fast as i do … i wonder why ..

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Besides thinking that its a natural talent, i wouldnt say so coz i stil miss alot of beat, but if its from God then i would accept lah. And i would just use it for god’s glory, altho i probly wont be serving as a drummer, but i will practice till i dont lack any patterns, and when i’m needed, i wouldnt mind showing the drummers diffrent way of playing and stuffs like that. And of coz the whole thing behind it is to teach.

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The REAL motive behind it, was just that i could show off a little bit… LOL … biasa le … im stil young and dangerous … such thing couldnt possibly escape me .. But if i add show off, hobby, having fun, and teaching together, then it wouldnt be as bad .. lol

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new year resolution

damn it took me 10 over minutes to get into the post, .. stupid wordpress .. anyhow … i was supose to post something sad ..again …but i didnt publish it … coz its rather worthless … same ol’ story ..

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Anyway i was just pondering upon a new yrs resolution … it was rather late but i did come out with something … and despite me stil having the stupid habit, i prefer not to mix that up with what i’m really gonna do.

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Firstly, im gonna get into a band, its been 4 years already, and i wonder why havent i got into any of those. I always use the excuse of saying its God’s will and he wanna chg me b4 i get into it … erm … well how should i put it ? There’s nothing more than sin, and if this ONE sin of mine keeps me away from serving as a musician, well … then i dont have anymuch to say. But in reality, or rather truth, everyone sins, and anybody on stage on any particular day has sin before he gets his hands on the instrument, or mic.

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So right now i’m starting to doubt whether it was really God whose stoping me, or isit ME that didnt bug beg them enuf, that until they got anoyed and let me in. If u say i need to change before i can get in, then if it takes 10 years for me to quit that habit, then i oni can show my ideas and thoughts 10 years later. and by that time, i wont gurantee that i stil come to church u know ? coz if im gonna endure their way of playing music for 10 more years, i’d rather find some other church .. nuff said ..

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But then again .. i wouldnt leave, coz i stil have kakis …and i hate to make new friends … its tiring and troublesome … so well i’ll probly backslide even more coz i will be thinking of other things while they worship, coz what they play aint music, just rubbish ..

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It’s fine if they regard my way of playing as rubbish, but if they dont even let me try, how would i know ? All these years i’ve just been gathering thoughts upon myself and expressed it to a minority of people. They seem to agree on a simple truth, Pianist – SHUT UP .. Electric G – why the heck are u so in the background ? Worship Leader – Learn to live with the Elec G will ya ? Bass – no comment, Drums – no comment ,. Backup singers – you aint supose to sing what the WL singing every single word, yr not his vocal dub ..

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Well most of the time i only talk about pianist and elect G .. coz i play elect G … which gives me more idea how it should really sound .. But of course, im not even close to playing on stage with me leading … coz for 4 years i’ve been doing nothing, no band experience .. no stage experience … jz a few in a year … where got enuf … aiyo ……

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While all other instrument are so freaking easy to get in .. the elect G is probly the hardest … the most underated most unpopular most unwanted noise … is probly elect-G and acous-G … Piano … simple ny wanna get it … nelson very cincai 1 … got people play he not happy meh ? Pooi Yian tht aint pro, Ian thats younger than me, ashley that dont have alot of christian music playstyle … Justina that dont even come for alot of band practice … ALL oso boleh main on normal yf worship …

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Drums…   banyak laku … but getting in oso big problem .. but reason is unknown ..probly due to the lack of responsiblility on the rookies coz we alwys play wihtout asking permision and somore face with this dax … he’s one fella who i dislike the most and probly the only dude tht i dislike in the planet .. Bass .. oso boleh lah ..tapi tak laku .. rare breed.. those tht served musnt be underestimated … Elect G … hmm … this is probly the weirdest of all … in the whole church ..thrs only 3 … and for a elect-G .. your requirement isnt just sticking on electG ..but when need arises .. your’ supose to play acousG for events .. NOw thts probly the most suckiest part of it … and where the heck are those acousG when u need them ? well coz they arent important so we often forget them… or rather the electG’s skill far surpass acousG so they are the most wanted … SOrry lah acousG people … you are like not having any place in church at all …probly thts why some people choose it coz they jz wanted to serve bt duwan face .. lol

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Anyway ..end of story … i stil duno whts the BIG fuzz abt it tho …tht to get into the electG is so hard to do … those 3 probly dont want extra … coz if add more means they get less play time … lol … actually its the least people serving … so the lakuness  is even lower than bass … how sad .. But oh yea…i havent even talk abt wht i want to do yet .. lol

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Yes get into actual REAL duty roster. THEN 2nd one is to kickstart the young ones to play what i play .. elec- G … I have a feeling tht one day we’re gonna have 2 elec-G …and its alwys been my dream to have someone being able to play what i play, and surpass my level …coz curently .. excluding kenyiap who doesnt really like to show off … i wanna see the younger ones solo better than me … and when i become old ..i can be the background while letting the young ones to take the front solos … Yeah !

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Christmas : The day dtdw stood still

Christmas, .. what an nostalgic day it is to be in summit, .. there are alot of my memories piled up in that ballroom, and there’s one person that made me who i am, one that helped me acomplish somethings that couldnt be done. She helped me overcame my fear, and made me think things positively. She was the hope that i held, the fact that i survived till this day. She made me lived life with hope, that each year’s christmas, I would meet her again. But, i’ve hoped for someting un-achievable. I’ve looked pass what god gave me, and i began to desire more of god’s perfect gift.

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The ‘one’, can be either god, or her. First it was god, and god sent her. How naive of me to think that every girl infront of me is godsent. It was like that from the very begining, but slowly, i started to lose sight, and slowly i’ve lost her. This year 2008, was another benchmark of dtdw’s adventure. He thought he’d score higher, but soon realized that it isnt possible. Altho god says with god, all things are possible, but if god doesnt want you to have it, there’s no point praying, hoping, asking. Altho God allowed me to try and bring it further, if it’s not god’s will, it will soon end.

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I began questioning myself, did i regret ? And from the word regret, there’s two things asked again : Did i regret being friends with her ? or ..  Did i regret not trying my best to keep the friendship going ?. I’d say, i regreted both of it. ANd i can also say, not at all, i do not regret either of it.

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What a problematic dtdw. Cant even make up his mind. And so it happened anyway, and it’s already too late to try and bring it back up. Its finish, it’s over. Even if we meet again by chance, i will never recognize her being a friend at all. What a sad life is he living.

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Yep, so it is that this year 2008, was the first time ever in his life, he completely ignored her, and altho just glancing at her back, did not face her face to face. Not hearing a single word that came out of her mouth, not even looking at her eyes, not a smile, and all i know she was just standing right infront of me, an arms away.

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Wonderful benchmark, it shows that i am at my limit, and thus this friendship has to end. And so i would say this : I regret knowing her, and i dont regret knowing her. Notice that i use the word regret, rather than happy for the latter. Because, there isnt any happiness to begin with, it was just in my mind, foolishly thought, she was godsent, to aid and cure and bring a smile on my face. Altho i have laughed with her, played with her, shared moments together, and seeing her happy and carefree face, all these had made my day happier, But it will only last for that few days, and i began to grow tired, dreading each passing day not being able to spent such times.

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I also thank god that he stopped all this, coz its pointless to wish for each christmas, pointless to think of her, pointless to pray for a good day, because my days of not being with her is more than the time i could spend with her. No one can imagine the pain i have to go through, only god knows. In a way, God wouldve also thought that this was pointless afterall, so he finally stopped it.

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Side effects ? OF course there is, now that i can hardly feel pain, i began to lose friends as well, because this incident taught me, “the more you get attached to someone, the more pain it is if that someone leaves you”. It is like a rubberband, The longer you pull, the harder or more painful it is if you let it go. And just imagine a super strong gigantic rubberband, one end in your hand, and another end in her hand. Both of you are to keep pulling for as long as you have breath. And imagine that each friend represents one rubberband. If you have 1000 friends you pull 1000. Either party let it go, the other person suffers from getting hit.

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So i dont have alot of friends, and she was the most precious to me. So she and i hold a super duper gigantic rubberband. And for some reason, on 25th december 2008, the band was let go. Doesnt matter who let it go, but the one that hurts, is me, because i was the one holding it the last.

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6 is the magic number. Our friendship : 2002-2007. Yep in fact it already ended in 2007, while 2008 is just a confirmation of our breakup.

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Sayonara, S.T. Goodness awaits us in heaven.

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Yet another Taboo

Or Maybe, it’s my first, one and only, taboo. DRUMS.

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I dont recal when this started exactly, mayb way back when i was first interested in the sound of drums and started paying attention to it. Back then when i was in the ol’ church, was a kid, probly standard 1 ? I dont really care about the sound of music, all i cared was the drums, even if the band goes way off, i stil like the drums. I was always looking at the drums throuout the entire worship session for as long as i stayed in that church.

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But of coz incident happends, when i wanted to touch the drums but without permission, and got scolded by someone not too older than me. Ever since then i hated that guy, but somehow never really bother coz i can never hate the drums, just hate the drummers for being so arrogant.

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A few years later, switched church, and that passion remains, but changed course abit when i hit form 4, which to me is the biggest turning point of life, where i started making decicion for my own instead of just go with the wind. So besides choosing between addmaths and economics and islamic, i took economics since it has less calculation and islamic is a total psycology failure. Then i took on electric guitar coz i stayed on the principal of “when there is a will, there is a way”. Altho being tone-deaf and lack of musical knowledge, i managed to break that barrier and learned it pretty fast, and in just a year i can do whacky stuffs on it.

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So what hit me was, where should i go next ? This thought never slip my mind becoz i can play both pretty well, and what more is that i’m more skilful when it comes to e-guitar, which scared me for until today. And i alwys ask, have i abandoned my first love ? LoL … I mean, .. how could i ?.

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A few more incident happened in church, the new one. When i tot they were all friendly and forgiving, and being me that never touched the drums before, wanted to have a go and see how far i can bring myself. I dont remember what age but probly form 3, one year after my change of church. Well at first it was all good, but then they have this same rule, ask before u touch, alwys take good care of it, keep the sticks, cover the cloth .. bla bla .. Well fine i sorta ignored most of it coz who they think the drums is ? more holy than the holy comunion cups ? I mean every other instrument is easiliy acceccsible and i got less scolding and beating from the bass, and even more is that i get NO scolding by using the e-guitar amp. That’s the only thing where u dont need to ask any bloody permission.

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Countless scolding and frustration, and it always impose on me ” ahh go to hell lah, im not gonna touch the drums anymore” … Even till today, and i suffered with that for so many years, as tho God’s the one that did it and say, stick with your new found love, and forget your first love. But i continued to hold on to what i believe, and i believe my first love never fails. Even tho i cursed everyone around me everytime when i’m banned from touching the drums, i stil couldnt forget what joy it brought me. Well sure the e-guitar shows a diff part of me, a whacky crazy lunatic frying meaningless solos, But the fact that i based all of it not on the singer, not bass, not acoustic, not piano, … But i am fully alive only when i play with the drums.

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Its a poor combination, but it is music to my soul, a perfect symphony. Becoz of the fact that i love to hear the sound of drums whacking, and coupled with my late love of e-guitar doing heavy distortion. And i alwys say, hate the drummer, not the drums, that fact kept me going, being able to play the drums even after being scolded for since 1996 till 2008.

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And getting a drumset at home seems to be a super big taboo for alot of people. Obviously the reason is coz everyone has this holy mentality of “do not disturb thy neighbour”. But screw my neighbours, they are nothing but noisy, and insignificant under my musical expertise. Since my room is located far away from the right side which seems to be the most polite family, it should be fine. ” Do unto others, what you want others do unto you”. But the problem isnt on teh neighbours yet. Its the space of my room, and it seems like it can fit A double bass drum with 8 symbols.

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All i need to do is think of a way to move the two shelf and it would be awesome !! Money is not a problem … duh !! But just that … It will cost more than wht i spent on ANYTHING on earth …even more than food …and my eguitar … But i dont care, im willing to trade that for the sake of breaking the rules of TABOO !!..

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Go me !! .. GANBATEH ! FIGHT-OH !!

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Emo kid

I dont know what really happened to me, but im seriously being emo, very very emo … I would become a stonner at any point of my life just thinking about certain things ..

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And when i try to do too much of some things, something out there is just trying to stop me from moving further.. Especially girls, which is common … When i dont think of them, it sorta happends naturally and i can talk to them the whole day, but when i put in a littlebit of effort trying to get that relationship going, it always fails …

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That is the one part of my life that i dont like. It literaly means that i canot think of any plans throughout the whole week, and i canot think about any of them at any point of my life. Becuz as soon as i tought of something awesome and felt like sharing my convo with her, whoever … it always fails … So it kinda like sucks, coz u can never …or ‘I’ can never get too close to them …

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Im always at this cliche of life, that i need to remind myself of such things, and my other source of spending time is just to read comic. IF i ever spent that few minutes trying to think of a certain nice romantic situation, or just some simple chat, it always fails when i got to the actuall thing itself.

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So what i’m trying to say is, my friendship with them always starts and ends on saturday and sunday and other events. No MSN, no SMS, dont even think of calling … And some of the best things in life can never be shared with a guy, parents, God. Sure i can tell everything i want to God, but he will stil require me to fellowship with one another, as he dont want me to be an outcast. Some things even if its the best, you bring it to a guy, he’ll just ignore it or pay very little attention to.

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So whats the conclusion of my such dreadful life ? Never ever have a plan, never dream, never think, never do anything, zero, nada, kosong, and always have an empty mind when it has things to do with ‘girls’. Even if your thoughts are pure, your plans are of good intentions, your actions are never harmful, your dream are not as always dirty, Even when u had the slightest of any intentions, it just never works. The ‘your’, obviosly is ‘me’.

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I just wanted to have a good time with just one girl a week, but if i were to plan too much, think too much, it will fail miserably, and alwys break my heart. I hate to end a week like that. So now i’ll just keep my distance with them, dont think of any plans, conversation. “Have nothing to do with the human called girl”. Yea, when i do that, my week almost always ends up good.

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Its pretty stupid, idiotic to think of such a theory. But as always, i’m a weird individual, and i alwys have a weird theory to back me up. But if it works, it works, … But that just means that i can never be TOO happy at the end of every week. Someone is trying to keep me ‘just content’. I can not think of anyone else except for God, which is alwys protecting me from unnesassary harm.

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IF its his way, then i shall follow. IF thats what he wants my life to be, then i’ll gladly obey. Thats why whenever it comes to topic like BGR, i alwys have mixed emotion, like a girl going thru the usual monthly thingy. So i can never understand why people get together, why people breakup. But standing from a point of view of being innocent, i can tell who is for real, and who is just playing around. Perhaps that’s God’s plan u see. He wants me to diffrentiate the real from the fake, by putting me in such a painful position, i can tell who’s gonna last til death, and who’s gonna breakup sooner or later.

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I mean, i didnt choose to be who i am. And somethings canot be changed. If God knew my problem, he couldve changed my circumstances. He did change alot of my suroundings and the way i live my life towards good. He did bless me with stuffs like guitars, amps, effects. A car to use. A Pc to play games and watch comic. He couldve easlily change that weird part of canot get too attached to girls, towards something much better, BUT he chose not to. So that means he does have a plan, and it’s his doing.

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He is not evil, so darkness and light canot live toghether. So he is good. And whatever things he does, is for the good, and never evil. So i have no doubts about his doings, just a littlebit frustrated.

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But that means i need to learn to trust in Him. And that requires faith. Lord grant be thy faith, that i may live thru this and fire may come but i will not be burned. Amen.

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Letting Go

There are alot of things in our life that isnt suppose to be there. Those are things which we take on by will or accident. And through this camp, i believe most of us received the same amount of toturing and beating, and most of my close friends received the same message : ” give it up” . Which includes me, of course. And its not like i went this camp without knowing a thing or two.

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Those that plan to give it up are very few, because theirs is to give up something precious to them. Girlfriend, cars, and etc. While I went with a heart to really give it up and just never ever pick it up again, and that is some sin. Alot of things God asked us to give up arent necessarily sin to begin with. Obviously sin is something that MUST be given up. But what if it isnt sin ? Just one or few things that really matters to us.

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I cant really understand much when God ask me to give up my girlfriend, coz i dont have one ! Hahaha … And if God ask me to give up the pc, well that one is plausible coz that’s one of the stumbling block. But if He asked me to give up my guitar, effect pedal, amp …. Like duh ! No way man … Are you crazy ?! Well fine so its probly the same reaction as one whom God asked to give up his girlfriend.. LoL

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Well i dont know when that’ll happen, but i just had a feeling that one day God’s gonna ask me to do it. Yes, even if God’s prophesy was that i become a lead musician or worship leader ( with a guitar ). LoL .. It’s like the story of Abraham and Isaac, where Abraham was to sacrifice Isaac. And yea, telling my guitar, “Hey ( no name yet ), I’m gonna sacrifice you as a burnt offering unto God” .. And hearing the guitar ’scream’ for the last time and whooosh in flame … Ouch ouch ouch ….

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Of coz the whole thing is to prove that Abraham loved God and put God first before Isaac, even it is his one and only son that time. The same with my guitar, my first and only guitar, not really the first but u get the idea, its the only guitar that i would use to play live. And if one day God ask me to do it, Im sure i would be ready, coz one of the things that i tell myself is not to get too attached to it. It’s just used to serve God, so i must be carefull not to ‘worship’ it, as most guitarist would.

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Well again something sad and more ramblings.. Im getting rather bored now at the praise and worship in church .. Its a fact that cant be ignored, as most of us are either ignorant or just being too humble, but what needs to change needs to be mentioned. The pianist in church is getting more and more wild. Just becoz the worship leader wants them to lead every single song so badly, it doesnt mean they can just hit every key for every song and always be the only musician that could be heard ! Its getting more out of hand than it was before. Either the rest of the musicians are lack of skill or just plain ol’ lazy to take a lead position, coz “its the pianist’ job’ ..

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Anyhow, i hope there’s something i could say or do to change certain things. And my biggest dream right now far surpases being the lead electric guitarist. It’s to become a worship leader and have a skilful electric guitarist to execute my wishes. And a band that acts as my consience and instinct, and adrenaline. Its like if i’m about to get hit by someone, the electric can jump off, and the drummer step in to hit the fella with the stick. And when i get high, the electric can go crazy and run around stage and solo.

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But, before i aquire any of that sort of team, I need to train my vocals correct, and get out of the “tone deaf” issue. I’m having alot of dreams and imagination lately, more frequent every single passing day. I wish i can put my hand into action and start working right away. I really really need guidance from God for this matter, coz it aint as simple as most people are, as they are arent tone deaf. And as you know, its like everyone can play a guitar as long as they learn diligently and dont have injuries. The same goes for anyone that isnt tone deaf, can sing, as long as they put in little bit of effort. But for me, i need to work xtra hard to get there, coz i need to get the pitch correct consistently.

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And besides, being a worship leader is even a greater role than any musician, coz you’re the lead ! See they follow you, and do what you want. And you as worhsip leader, follows God’s holy spirit, and do what the spirit wants. I belive God is waiting for someone that just is wiling enuf to take up that passionate spirit to drive the crowd further into powerful worship experience. I realize that sometimes it’s no use telling people what to do, coz either i didnt convey it properly, or they just cannot achive that great feat that i mentioned. Or rather it’s too hard for them and thus they shove my idea off. And in the end, its better to just do it myself, but of coz with God’s blessing. I could continue to try and convince them, but if they stil dont listen, its really just up to me to take up that roll.

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And one more thing, You know being a worship leader doesnt mean you have all the power in your hands. Sometimes you need to please the crowd by letting them do what they want. I’ve actualy had a bad experience on the last day of camp where me and danny wanted to do a snake and the worhip leader just stopped us suddenly and made us do her action, the usual action. Do they realy care about the hearts of his people rather than just executing every single move by the title of a worship leader ? Does that mean you can do what you want and dont hear what his people are trying to say ?

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In a band

Well, .. it’s really not easy to co-operate with people, .. especially not with the musicians ..

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Alot of stuff happened … i managed to pull it off playing lead for reflector and lifesong and We want to see Jesus lifted high. But the biggest problem was the sound .. Yea sure the band can hear it LOUD and not so clear … Erm … no matter how much you try to argue … you could never get things done the way ” it should be ” .. i dont really care about ear polution when i play tho … but we aint talking about ourselves, its music is for the people !

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Well not that we had alot to begin with. Firstly we just had two speakers, 1 for musicians and one for audience. And knowing the hall is super echoey and we had 70+ campers clapping and singing. .. The only instrument that got accross was piano and acoustic, seeing that it is AER .. no doubt.

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And the electric part ? Well i dont really know what they’re thinking ?! I mean c’mon they call that rally and its people are YOUTH .. So why are we using acoustic and keyboard to play some song ? Look diff music cater for diff people, and if we cater for the old people the slow and old’ familiar type, .. Shouldnt the youth get to hear some rock or blues ?

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And yet we are ‘not’ allowed to bring so many things in the bus .. owh well there goes … I mean dont they get it ? How on earth do u expect people to dance and jump around with the stupid keyboard ? All they play is rubbish ! Anyhow … I’ll figure the parts for pianist to play once i get into a proper position .. Now that i’m just a scrawny electric guitarist … Fine .. Patience pays off .. it will ..

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I dont really wanna disrespect the pianist but seriously … do you all seriously think the way u’re playing now makes people happy ? Makes people wanna jump ? dance ?  i doubt that …so Im stepping in with the elect-G right now and that’s gonna change. .. Back when i first started joining church… Which is 2002 ..

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I’ve never felt furstrated that much … Its goona pile up and one day i’m gonna blow off … everyone will surely get some beating from me …

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And about a certain individual that broke our snake on the last night of the rally really ..really … PISSES ME OFF !! Well dah lah the music suck … We’re trying not to get sucked into it and started forming a chain of snake and round the crowd … and there it is … the worship leader stopped all of us … and made us do the ‘usual’ action …

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Well camp no doubt is good … but all these issues cannot be neglected … Eng kok said the worship team is the powerhouse of the church .. We’re actually playing a pretty big part as like in a battle, we’re on the front line of it. Or rather we surround the soldiers … Left right up down and every corner … We jump .. We shout .. We sing praises … Thats the whole idea … And also to have some fun … No doubt our praise and worship is for God and only him … But that doesnt mean we oughto ‘not’ do crazy things … Well should i say they’re hypocrate ? It may well be .. They on one part say it plays an important role, powerhouse, priesthood, uplifting the downcast and weary people, peace bringer, hope setter, .. But on the other hand, doesnt put any effort to do it ,, those effort are as simple as creating a beat that makes people jump, or create emo tune to make people cry … Hey c’mon the world does a better job than us christians … dont u feel shameful ? dont u feel u’re slacking ?

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I stil had alot to say but i feel like sleeping … So till next time …

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dtdw returns !!

Anyway…whatsup with wordpress ?? it looks weird…

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Yea so dtdw is back from camp and is happy to tell you that this will be a dailybread post.

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December 5, 2008

Seeing Jesus

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READ: Isaiah 53:1-6

He has no form or comeliness; and when we see Him, there is no beauty that we should desire Him. —Isaiah 53:2

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When I was young, I thought I knew exactly what Jesus looked like. After all, I saw Him every day whenever I looked at some pictures in my bedroom. One showed Jesus knocking at a door and the other depicted Him as a Shepherd with His sheep.

What I didn’t know was that a mere decade before I was born, those pictures of Jesus didn’t exist. Warner Sallman painted the well-known “Head of Christ” and other portraits of Jesus in the 1940s. Those images were just one man’s idea of what Jesus might have looked like.

The Bible never gives a physical description of Jesus. Even the men who saw Him every day didn’t tell us what He looked like. In fact, the only clue we have is a passage in Isaiah that says: “There is no beauty that we should desire Him” (53:2). It seems that Jesus’ human form was deliberately de-emphasized. He looked like an ordinary man. People weren’t drawn to Him because of a regal appearance but because of what He said and did and because of the message of love He came to give (John 3:16).

But the next time Jesus comes to earth, it will be different. When our Savior returns, we will recognize Him as the sovereign King of kings and Lord of lords! (1 Tim. 6:14-15).  — Cindy Hess Kasper

The more I see His beauty,
The more I know His grace,
The more I long, unhindered,
To gaze upon His face. —Anon.

To see Jesus will be heaven’s greatest joy.

Isaiah 53:1-6 (The Message)

Isaiah 53

1 Who believes what we’ve heard and seen? Who would have thought God’s saving power would look like this?2-6The servant grew up before God—a scrawny seedling,
a scrubby plant in a parched field.
There was nothing attractive about him,
nothing to cause us to take a second look.
He was looked down on and passed over,
a man who suffered, who knew pain firsthand.
One look at him and people turned away.
We looked down on him, thought he was scum.
But the fact is, it was our pains he carried—
our disfigurements, all the things wrong with us.
We thought he brought it on himself,
that God was punishing him for his own failures.
But it was our sins that did that to him,
that ripped and tore and crushed him—our sins!
He took the punishment, and that made us whole.
Through his bruises we get healed.
We’re all like sheep who’ve wandered off and gotten lost.
We’ve all done our own thing, gone our own way.
And God has piled all our sins, everything we’ve done wrong,
on him, on him.

The last four lines is the best description for my thought of today, it’s true that i’ve gotten lost, .. really really lost … and seared conscience ..

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Thank God for such a great camp, we didnt really play much but i definitely studied alot, … and this time around, many of us are lost … and bcoz of such daring comitees, they spoke what everyone hates to listen, infact everyone would rather shut their ears off … Smoking, drinking, sexual immorality, lust of the flesh, visiting xrated sites, self-gratification .. ARE ALL SINS …

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And through the devotion i’ve learned that He took the punishment, and that made us whole. Through his bruises we get healed.

Yep, all the sins … he took it and hanged it on the cross, and i’m glad that i got out of the darkness that entangled me. What’s left right now is Prayer, Fellowship, and Reading the bible.

Well thats all ..

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